playing the game

life is a game with a glorious price,if we can only play it right
it is give and take, build and break,and often its end in a fight;
but he surely wins who honestly tries, regardless of wealth or fame..

he can never despair who plays it fair. how are u playing the game?

do you wilt and whine, if you fail to win in the manner you think u're due?

do you sneer at the man in case that he can and does do better than u?

does ur faith hold true when the world was blue?

how are you playing the game?

get into the thick of it !!! whatever you cherished goal
brace up your will till ur pulses thrill, and u dare-- to your very soul !
do something more than make a noise, let ur purpose lead into flame.
as u plunge with a cry "i shall do or die"

then u will be playing the game........

a smile

a smile cost nothing but give much.
it takes but a moment, but the memory use it as forever
none are so rich that can get along without it,
and none are so poor but that can be made rich by it


some people are to busy to give u a smile
give them one of yours
for the god lord knows that no one need a smile soo badly
as he or she who has no more smiles left to give.

Say you Love me by MYMP

                                            

you live so far away, farther than anyone can see. yet we are closer to one another, than anything could ever be.

i played with ur hair while you sucked on your thumb.. you call me stupid, i call you dumb.

i stayed all night writing a notes to you.. and you stayed and keep telling me 'i love you' hmmmm... always as a friend of course, i was your sugar hunny and you are my baby boo. but, how we did not notice? how this came to be true?

one day... you dared me to tell my secret.. and you will tell your secret too.. you said :

 "i wanna know the truth.do you dream about me too?" and i answer spontaniac "yes,all the time baby boo. is it something you do too?"

then we stared at each other. our eyes saw something new, i looked at your lips and you licked mine "if what was you thinking, it is also on my mind sugar hunny".

everything would be good :)

when we are friend for a while, you didnt seem to realize, theres a change in your mind. it triggers the feeling,ignites the fire, that makes him a part of your desire.

tembang jawa kesukaan mami

Just want to share with all of you what i've learned from the history of my families.When im feeling anxious and angry, mom always told me with javanese language song or we used to call it 'tembang'.
this is one that frequently she was told :

"ing wekasan muwuhi kang runtik, dipun sareh pun cetha pratela, ngawulo satriya anom, nengih ibarati pun, ing satriya anom yen runtik, kadya yen banjir bandhang, kang katrajang larut, yen dinuta dipun kebat, jroning kebat akanthia ngati-ati, amrih ywa ambri duka.
ing malihe wekas ingsun kaki,yen satriya anom lagi duka,aja amapras dukane, lir ngadu kang tiksya lungit, singa ingkang kataman, temahan cumeprut, balikan den anggerepa, aturira kan seru rereh pratitis, amrih lunturing duka" -pangeran lanang dangiran-

indonesian translate: "jika perkataan seseorang kasar dan menyakitkan hendaklah kita hadapi dengan tenang dan dengarkanlah dengan sabar tanpa perasaan amarah. mengabdi ksatria muda usia, ibarat ketika ksatria itu sedang marah seperti air bah, segala yang di terjang akan lenyap.
lagipula pesanku, jika ksatria muda sedang marah, jangan di penggal marah nya, itu ibarat mengadu benda runcing dan tajam. maka dari itulah perbaiki tutur katamu agar tidak menambah kemarahannya" -pangeran lanang dangiran-

mom says this 'tembang' is from my forefathers who told generation to generation reply. highly many meaning contained in that 'tembang' that u guys can thoroughly and understand. the 'tembang' teaches us to be strong personal,lovely,patient,empathize,and wise.
ok then, i just want to share with all off you what i've learned from the history of my families. i hope this little note may be useful for all of you :)

                                                                                              http://keluargatjondronegoro.blogspot.com/2009/02/sejarah-keluarga-dan-keluarga-besar.html

when love grows up

"love and sacrifice are woven together-inseparable strands in the fabric of our lives"


   Sacrifice makes love grow up.
children love,their love is impatient,possesive,demanding immediate fulfilment.
grown-up love is able to wait,to share,to understand.

   To sacrifice means to put a side one's own needs and pleasures for the good of another. it is learning to say 'ours' and 'we' instead of 'yours' and 'mind'.

   Giving up rights, possesion and time is not always joyful. it is an art to be learned,and there is a price to be paid. But the art of giving up and letting go is the most important art to be learned. the cost is high but the rewards are immeasurable.

  And not for lovers only, but for the whole world.

you are the trip i did not take,

you are the pearls i did not buy,

you are my blue italian lake,

you are my peace of foreign sky.

-rita snowden-

It's never your enemies that get you. It's always your own people (fake friend)

you turning into a lie, not the girl i used to know. you think your loved, but in fact everybody hates you.

how can u be so blind?

u say ur my friend.. im not dumb enough to trust u, i really care to you... but,u never accept a person as they are.. aren't u?

ure supposed to be my friend. ure not supposed to get revenge on me or backstab me. you put on a front that appears accommodating,loyal,and yes,even sacrificial. then without warning,u rise ur knife, and by the time u see the glint of the blade,its almost always too late.

apakah dengan kamu mencemooh seseorang kamu akan terlihat menarik?

apakah dengan kamu membicarakan aib seseorang kamu akan terlihat sempurna?

apakah dengan kamu mengadu domba seseorang kamu akan terlihat dapat diandalkan?

apakah dengan kamu menilai seseorang tanpa mengenalnya lebih dalam kamu akan terlihat pintar?

APAKAH KAMU MERASA SUDAH SEMPURNA DAN BISA MENGHAKIMI ORANG LAIN YANG NOTABENE ADALAH TEMAN MU SENDIRI DAN MENGGUNJING NYA DI TEMAN-TEMAN MU YANG LAIN?

apakah kamu layak di cintai jika kamu melakukan itu semua?

kamu hanya akan kehilangan semua cinta karna perilaku mu sendiri.

senandung malam ini

hujan di ujung bulan biar menjadi saksi hati. betapa pun mencinta tapi ini takkan mungkin.

Cerita Tentang Kita (ilusi)

Dan ketika malam ini aku ingin menangis tanpa alasan yang jelas. 

prolog : Dia datang. di saat dunia ku gelap.. tak banyak menaruh banyak harapan kepada nya.. tak ingin dia beri perhatian dan sayang nya.. tapi, apa daya ku.. aku (yang pada saat itu) hanyalah seekor kupu-kupu dengan sayap patah yang seakan menjerit dalam diam,mencari pertolongan.


    Dia sang kumbang.. dengan  perhatian nya.. akhirnya membuat si kupu-kupu dapat kembali terbang meskipun tidak terlalu tinggi... dalam waktu yang singkat, si kupu-kupu dapat tersenyum.. melupakan sakit yang ia rasakan, meskipun sayap si kupu-kupu (yang pada saat itu) masih terluka.................. indah terasa...... tanpa terasa.... si kupu-kupu jatuh hati pada nya...
namun, sang kumbang perlahan pergi menjauh. oh, bukan perlahan tapi cepat!! dengan cepatnya sang kumbang terbang pergi jauh entah kemana.... si kupu-kupu.... hanya bisa merelakan... namun, hati nya remuk redam bahkan lebih sakit daripada ketika sayap nya patah............................................................
"kalau kamu hanya datang untuk sesaat,kenapa kamu harus memperlakukan aku dengan indanhya? apa salahku pada mu wahai kumbang? aku tak pernah memintamu mengobati luka di sayapku dan membuat aku bisa sedikit pulih.." lirih si kupu-kupu berbisik pada malam. "dan kenapa, kamu meninggalkan aku di saat aku masih butuh kamu? apa maksudmu?" tangis si kupu-kupu pun meledak. "apa salahku?"
     Hari berganti.. si kupu-kupu kembali terpuruk dalam gelisah dan rindu akan sang kumbang. berharap dia datang menemui nya. tapi,hari itu tak kunjung datang.................................................................................................................


    Di suatu sore yang berangin di bulan April.


   Si kupu-kupu terbang rendah diantara hamparan rumput luas. si kupu-kupu berbicara pada angin dengan lirih : "aku hanyalah korban dari jerat ilusi mu.. kau membuatku ber ilusi akan sebuah kasih sayang yang tulus" batin si kupu-kupu menjerit. "aku tak pernah menuntut mu.. aku hanya ingin membalas kebaikan mu karna membuat aku tersenyum pada saat sayapku patah.. aku ingin membalas mu dengan ketulusan ku" air matanya jatuh dan tersapu angin yg kemudian mengeringkan air matanya. dan, kembali dia berbisik pada angin,namun kali ini dengan nada yang yakin (yakin agar menguatkan diri-nya sendiri) "hai kumbang!" teriak si kupu-kupu, "kamu telah melewatkan kesempatan emas untuk memiliki aku".


epilog : Pengalaman berharga aku dapatkan namun rasa sakit yang luar biasa juga aku dapatkan. Dia yang kamu yakini,kamu yakin bahwa dia yang akan membantu mu berdiri kuat menapaki hari ternyata hanyalah orang yang memberi mu ilusi. 

Maka,Pintar-pintarlah menjaga hatimu. Berikan hanya pada dia yang akan membuat ilusimu menjadi sebuah realita  :)

grâce à Dieu

banyak orang di dunia ini yang melewati hidup tanpa mengerti betapa penting nya mereka untuk umat sejagat.

hidup ini  bukanlah suatu jalan yang datar dan di taburi bunga melainkan ada kala nya di sirami airmata dan juga darah.

ingatlah, tidak ada arang batu yang berubah menjadi intan tanpa melalui tekanan demi tekanan.

ingatlah, hidup yang melalui cobaan dan kesukaran adalah untuk menjadikan kita lebih kuat dan memahami orang lain.

ketika diri kita merasakan telah di khianati dan di kecewakan, berdoalah agar suatu saat kau tidak akan mengkhianati dan mengecewakan. karna kau sudah tau betapa sakitnya di khianati dan di kecewakan.

hanya hati yang pernah merasakan kekecewaan yang dapat merasakan arti kasih dan sayang terhadap sesama manusia.

hidup ini adalah suatu nikmat bagi mereka yang menghargai dan menjalani nya.

tak peduli apapun yang terjadi,selalu miliki senyum yang buatmu terlihat bahagia dan doa yang membuat mu kuat... dan, doa yang akan selalu membuat kita merasa cukup dalam segala hal adalah :

"terimakasih tuhan"  :)

                                                                   *grâce à Dieu = thanks to god in french          

 i pretend im glad u went away.. these four walls closing more everydays. and im dyin inside and nobody knows it but me. Like a clown i put on a show the pain is real even if nobody knows and im cryin inside.

why didnt not i say the things that i want to say?! why??!! now, my world just tumblin down..

i can say it so clearly, but u are nowhere around. and im missin u, nobody knows it but me. i carry a smile when im broken in two im trembelin inside, with nobody knows it but me.

how blue can i get? u could ask my heart but like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart. a million words could not say just how i feel. the nights are lonely,the day are so sad and nobody knows it but me.

everytime i think of you, my tears appear..

  late at night when all the world is sleeping i'd stay up and think of you and i'd wish one of star that somewhere u thinking of me too. then here in my room,dreaming about you and me. if u looked into my eyes would u see whats inside? or do u even care?

.....and i bet u'll never remember the things that i'll never forget.

no dont worry with youre suitcase, dear..and dont worry with ur suitcase, dear..

cause the people out to get you, they dont know that u are here..so dont worry about ur suitcase, dear!

honey, u dont have to go nowhere..

cause the people out there screaming they linger in the air,but u have to go nowhere..

just forget about ur troubled mind coz i can see u dreaming.. knowing that's in time :)